It's so hard for me to accept it.

26th of November,the day we cry,cry...the day we are all sad...the day we lost our loving dad.On 25th ,when we visit him at hospital,he tell jokes and make us laugh...we are all happy.Before we left,he says Thank You to us many times.

On 26th,around 1 o'clock,a call came,my brother answer the call....it says that our dad is having difficulties.My mom,Lee lee,Xiang Ting and I were sleeping in the same room on that day.My brother woke us up and tell us the news...I was shocked!and I can feel that something is not right.

While waiting for my mom to come down from the stairs,I prayed to God to make sure that my dad is safe and hope that nothing is happening to him.On our way there,I was scared.I wanted to cry out loud!My whole body was shaking.I feel very cold!extremely cold!
After we reached the wad,I could not see any doctor beside my dad.

I was with my mom.Then,the doctor approached us,the nurse keep on asking my mom to sit down first,then the doctor start looking into the file.Then he told us that my dad heart beats stop at 12:45 a.m....I stunned for a while,it was like everything had stop!I have no idea what to do.I keep on crying and crying...I couldn't describe my feelings ....It's too hard for me.The last time we saw him,he was very happy ...everything was so normal and out of the sudden someone told you that he already passed away.I couldn't accept the fact that he's gone.

It's like something penetrate into my heart when I saw that person laying in the coffin is my dad!I remember my dad said that when He saw us cry,he also cry inside his heart.Because of those words,I try hard not to cry even though I really wanted too...

Sometimes,I feel happy.Happy because my dad doesn't have to feel the pain he has been suffering for so long.It is a good thing for him to stay in another world where he doesn't have to suffer.The person that I'm worried about is my mom.I know my mom and dad love each other!like very much!I know my mom is very sad...it's just that she doesn't want us to feel sad too,so she just sit at the corner alone thinking of something.But I know she miss my dad.

This year! Papa favourite Hong Kong drama is Moonlight Resonance!Papa watched quiet a lot of dramas this year like Heart of Greed, Forensic Heroes 1 & 2,Marriage Of Inconvenience and Wasabi Mon Amour till episode 8 only,but I don't think my dad like to watch Wasabi Mon Amour cause everytime when he watch it,surely he will fall asleep .Papa always loves to watch Bobby Au dramas.Papa says his acting is good!

I now realize that everything funny,weird,stupid,annoying act that he did....was to make sure that we all are happy.He always care for others.He always wanted our whole family to be happy.His pain that he had been gone through for so long,nobody could understand it.

Weslife songs really suit my mood for now.I don't know why.But I feel very happy every time I visit my dad in hospital.After my dad had gone,I guess I have a bit fear about going to hospital.*sighs!

After watching Moonlight Resonance,my dad keep on singing Raymond Lam,Love is not enough song.And obviously! He only know how to sing this part 'Fong Sau!'.

All we could do for him is to pray for him.So that his journey to another world will be brighter.My Pa is cute!
Bye bye papa!